Adam Lambert "For Your Entertainment"

Adam Lambert "For Your Entertainment" Music Video








To order the official Collecter's CD on sale November 23, 2009

click the link: http://plus.adamofficial.com/

Saved By the Bell reunion NOT going to happen

The photo-shoot they did earlier this year meant nothing. They confirmed that there will be no reunion episode.

Lady Gaga Before The Fame

Lady Gaga (Stefani Germanotta) on MTV's Boiling Point! See if she makes it!

In the words of Devin Martin

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
We ask ourselves, "who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous?"

Actually, who are you not to be?

These Ain't Ya Mama's Disney Princes!

Remember those handsome, animated, Disney Princes you used to crush on when you were little? Here they are, back in full force and all sexed up in nothin but undies!





ALADDIN





David from Lilo & Stitch





Dr. Sweet from Alantis





Eric from The Little Mermaid





Gaston from Beauty & The Beast





Hercules





Human Beast aka Adam from Beauty & The Beast





Jim from Treasure Island





John Henry





John Smith from Pocahontas





Kocou from Pocahontas





Kuzco from The Emperor's New Groove





Milo Thatch from Atlantis





Peter Pan





Phoebus from the Hunchback of Notre Dame





Prince Edward





Prince Phillip from Cinderella





Shang from Mulan





Tarzan





Thomas from Pocahontas





Troy Bolton from High School Musical





Will Turner from Pirates of the Caribbean

Even the president can have a change of heart.

Clinton: I Was Wrong About Gay Marriage




Bill Clinton says he was wrong about gay marriage, and in an interview airing tonight on CNN with Anderson Cooper, Clinton talks about why he's had a change of heart.


By Advocate.com Editors




Bill Clinton says he was wrong about gay marriage, and in an interview airing tonight on CNN with Anderson Cooper, Clinton talks about why he's had a change of heart.







Anderson Cooper: You said you recently changed your mind on same-sex marriage. I’m wondering what you mean by that. Do you now believe that gay people should have full rights to civil marriage nationwide?
Bill Clinton: I do. I think that, well let me get back to the last point, the last word. I believe historically, for two hundred and something years, marriage has been a question left to the states and the religious institutions. I still think that’s where it belongs.


That is, I was against the constitutional amendment to ban gay marriage nationwide, and I still think that the American people should be able to play this out in debates. But me, Bill Clinton personally, I changed my position. I am no longer opposed to that. I think if people want to make commitments that last a lifetime, they ought to be able to do it. I have long favored the right of gay couples to adopt children.


What made you change your mind? Was there one thing?
I think, what made me change my mind, I looked up and said look at all of this stuff you’re for. I’ve always believed that—I’ve never supported all the moves of a few years ago to ban gay couples from adoption. Because they’re all these kids out there looking for a home. And the standard on all adoption cases is, what is the best interest of the child?


And there are plenty of cases where the best interest of the child is to let the gay couple take them and give them a loving home. So I said, you know, I realized that I was over 60 years old, I grew up at a different time, and I was hung up about the word.


I had all these gay friends, I had all these gay couple friends, and I was hung up about it. And I decided I was wrong.


WATCH THE VIDEO HERE.

http://www.advocate.com/News/Daily_News/2009/09/25/Clinton__I_Was_Wrong_About_Gay_Marriage/

10 Ways to Spend Smarter at Starbucks

You don't have to eliminate your favorite things when spending less is your goal; you just need to spend smarter. Starbucks knows how much you're seeking value these days, and invited me to discover the ultimate insider's tips on how to enjoy your Starbucks experience for less. Deanna, the store manager of a local Starbucks, taught me several awesome tricks I never would have known about otherwise. Check out these ten tips that the stores' baristas swear by.




Click to view the slideshow

http://www.savvysugar.com/3751741?page=0,0,0




Anthony Elias Espinoza 2009

Larry Fitzgerald & Friends: Morton's Celebrity Waiter Night

Arizona Cardinals players serve fans for charity at the Larry Fitzgerald & Friends: Morton's Celebrity Waiter Night.




http://phoenix.metromix.com/bars-and-clubs/photogallery/larry-fitzgeralds-arizona-cardinals/1419627/content




Anthony Elias Espinoza 2009

The Most Annoying Facebookers

So if you haven't already read this article that CNN wrote on Facebook, you should read it now. Its about "The Most Annoying Facebookers"




http://www.cnn.com/2009/TECH/08/20/annoying.facebook.updaters/index.html




Anthony Elias Espinoza 2009

Bradley Scott- Amazing Fashion Designer

Bradley Scott is a fresh concept of style for women who are confident in how they dress, not afraid to mix and match, and love breaking the traditional style codes to create their own unique fashion standard. Bold, modern, and sophisticated pieces- f...it to perfection each with a playful twist in compass a long tradition of hand craftsmanship, using the finest textiles, and finished with artisan individuality.


www.bradleyscott.com



Anthony Elias Espinoza 2009

Obama Team to fix Laws of Physics

Obama Team to fix Laws of Physics
(From a senior level Chrysler person)


Monday morning I attended a breakfast meeting where the guest speaker was Chairman David E. Cole, Center for Automotive Research (CAR) and Professor at the Univ. of Michigan. You have likely heard CAR quoted in industry news lately.


Mr. Cole, an engineer by training, told many stories of the difficulty working with the folks that the Obama administration has sent to save the auto industry. There have been many meetings where a 40+ year experienced automotive expert has to listen to a newcomer to the industry, someone with zero manufacturing experience, zero auto industry experience, zero business experience, zero finance experience, and zero engineering experience, tell them how to run their business.


Mr. Cole relays his favorite story:


A team of Obama people speaking to Mr. Cole requested that the auto companies need to make a car that is electric and liquid natural gas (LNG) with enough combined fuel to go 500 miles so we wouldn't "need" so many gas stations (A whole other topic). They were quoting BTU's of LNG and battery life that they had looked up on some website.


Mr. Cole replied that to do this you would need a trunk FULL of batteries and a LNG tank at big as a car to make that happen and that there were problems related to the laws of physics that prevented them from...


The Obama person interrupted and said "These laws of physics? Who's rules are those, we need to change that. (Some of them wrote down the law name so they could look it up) We have the congress and the administration. We can repeal that law, amend it, or use an executive order to get rid of that problem. That's why we are here, to fix these sort of issues".


Anthony Elias Espinoza 2009

Sophie Tucker

From birth age 18, a girl needs good parents, from 18-35 she needs good looks, from 35-55 she needs a good personality, and from 55 on she needs cash.- Sophie Tucker



Anthony Elias Espinoza 2009

Bobby Castaneda

"Love is your light. Dont block it" - B. castaneda



Anthony Elias Espinoza 2009

Aries Daily Horoscope: Saturday August 22nd, 2009

You are turning the corner into a strong appreciation for the past and for your roots in life. Making your home situation more pleasant and attractive plays a part in this. The sale or purchase of real estate could bring you much gain before the end ...of this cycle. You may yearn for family harmony. Lasting values and finding your path and purpose is what guides you.


There are new paths opening up for you--opening up avenues that have before now been blocked. Your home environment, friends and surroundings in general receive much attention. You will gain from the time you spend with young people this afternoon. Do not forget to include all family members in any decisions to move or purchase property.




Anthony Elias Espinoza 2009

Daily Food For Thought

The Sun moves into Virgo today, introducing a season of planning and fine-tuning. If you have projects that have been on hold or things to finish up, now is the time to start working. You can accomplish a lot if you use this time wisely. This is also... a good opportunity to improve your health and hygiene routines and focus on strengthening your body.




Anthony Elias Espinoza 2009

On Point

Life is one big puzzle piece whom's carefully cut corners need to become one with an intelligent precision. I just choose to put pieces wherever I feel they belong even is the corners don't meet one another, who said things had to go according to plan. I live my life with no absolute rules, which sets everyone else apart; I don't agree with things being cookie cut and/ or symmetrical. I live my life with no balance. I enjoy the asymmetrical way of living, where things don't have to look right, are out of place, look haggard, and seen unordinary and awkward to the "simple minded" eye. I call these the one's who either don't care for the arts, appreciate the arts, are uneducated of the arts, or unaware to what life's really about. Sometimes a little change of the surroundings and heart can never hurt, how else are we supposed to determine if we are either existing in life like a stone or we are actually living and doing in the world. Nothing is certain so I say change it up and try something else, you might actually like the change. There is no manual to life's clutches and whirlwinds that seem to only get worse or better, never being in the middle playing a part in the symmetry world of the plain, ordinary, zombies that walk the streets.

People shouldn't think just because someone is different that they should be pushed aside and ignored, rather than turning to turning to conscious arrogance, one should embrace such behavior wholeheartedly. Life is short, so live your life with purpose, whatever it is that suits you best; no one can tell you your daily routine so think up a plan, be the flow and stop going with the flow. Nobody likes a boring person. When I hear somebody say that they are bored I can't help but go back to what I was told about, "only boring people get bored". This is a valid statement because there is so much in the world to experience so don't limit yourself. There's a wonder out there calling your name waiting to be born into the constant being we call the world. This is like the "domino effect"; it only takes one great idea to be part out into the universe, this idea could possibly lead to another and another, which can be used to continue the ongoing cycle. Life should be about possibilites and not about limitations, "now it's just too late and we can't go back I'm sorry I can't be perfect," you should be more worried about evolving into something greater, rather than trying to fins the loopholes and thinking up a storm of ways to get out taking the fast track.


It's saddening to see the vulnerable and weak minded lose sight and hope of the beautiful thing called life. For some people the daily deed is unbearable and impossible to group tight enough to ride it our, while others fear opening up their eyes to the many sides of life. Without good there would be no bad, black no white, right no wrong; without chaos and confusion, things would be mechanical and robot like, but I suppose there are those out there who enjoy such a thing. I'm not one to judge nor should you be. Let's all just let people be.




Anthony Elias Espinoza 2009

The economy

Do you think that economic conditions in the country as a whole are getting better or getting worse?

38%Getting worse
32%Getting better
30%About the same

Ass Grab Wednesday; August 9th, 2009

There's only really one word to describe my day, E-P-I-C. The night before the awaited day I had a friend (mind it I'm really into this friend) came over to the house for some get to know each other time. I enjoy hanging out with this person, but at times I get a little-school-girl-crush-on-a-boy-syndrome, when im around him, one thing I can't help but do is take my hand and follow the shape of his face with the tips of my fingers, feeling every crevice from the inside of his eyes, the root of his nose, to the gentle wave of his lips, while telling him how adorable he is. So back to the story, when he arrived I couldn't help but think how attractive he is, and I wanted to get closer to him, so I insisted on watching a movie "Spirited Away" a japanese anime movie redone in America. I love the movie and asked him his thoughts, he said it was a weird movie; I don't think it was weird, the director is a genius with a wild imaginative visions.


Due to it being a Saturday, everyone had plans to go out that night, including cute boy, whos roommate supposedly had VIP at some gay spot downtown. He was invited to join the group for some partying and free booze. What a deal right? As the night grew darker, out time fell shorter. I was face to face with the end of the hourglass. As much as I wanted him to stay, and as much as he wanted to stay, I had hoped, I had to say goodbye and with a hug (no kiss), he stepped into his convertible, two seater BMW and was off into the night. I watched as the small car get even smaller into the dark abyss of the late night. Shortly after, I gathered my thoughts of one of my many "No Drama" nights, recollected on my time with him and head to the room for my slumber. The next day was going to be a big, busy, task filled day, I prepared weeks in advanced for this to come so by all means, to my belief I was ready.





The next morning was an early wake up, earlier than I'm used to, but it was all for a reason. It started with a big egg and hashbrown breakfast than some phone calls and emails to attend to, I still had to head to the apartments to pick up whatever wardrobe I could that was relevant to the photoshoot. Once everything was together it was off to the venue for an early meeting and discussion with the few who came earlier than the rest. I scoped out places inside the club for shot possibilities and awaited the other people to arrive. Slowly the group got bigger and at this time I wanted to start make up and hair. Models started coming together as more and more arrived some later than others, but nobody was left out.





The previous day I had two boutiques whom were going to be utilized during the photoshoot, I will keep the names out of this blog, both of them cancelled on me last minute. If there is one thing I can't handle it's someone saying that they are going to do something and not following through with it- this was no joking matter because I needed clothes, which is why I made the early morning phone calls and emails. As the Creative Director for this photoshoot, I had no idea what to expect when I took on the job, all that I knew was I had a vision, something new, fresh, and unique. I told every single model what their make up was going to look like, how their hair would be, clothing to wear, positioning of the body, and facial expressions to make. Even though I had so much going on at one time, people in my ear, people over here, over there, worried about time, questioning the outcome of my vision. I knew that I had to do one thing and that was to keep my sanity and stay focused. Through all the questions I was still impressed at how everything came together. It was so collective and at that very moment was no longer just a vision, idea, or thought, it had become definite reality. To an extent I was so impressed by hoe everything looked so good. I know my strong points and how talented I really am when I put my mind to it. I felt like a genius.


The more people began to soak in the events, the more they had come to a conclusion that 1. I was not bullshitting in the least, 2. I know what I'm doing, 3. that this was actually happening right in front of them. As one compliment from a colleague came, so did the next one and I embraced it. Sometimes a little affirmation being said is a nice thing to have and goes a long way, especially on a hardworking job. The shoot did take longer, which was fine with me, and the others seems totally committed to seeing it through to the end. Once it was over soon came the sigh of relief and you saw it on everyone's face as we packed up our belongings and headed to the house to celebrate.





In the beginning of the planning process I had other things I wanted to do for this shoot (new rave, indie, new york couture), but I think as time went by my (electro, rockerish, glam feel) made a bigger impression on the feeling and gave everyone an introduction to the many sides of me. They can be sure there's more where that came from because I'm barely getting started and opening up a new world of cohesive collision of art, music, and fashion. I call these the 3 amigos, and everyone should associate and utilize them in everyday life because they are the most magnificent existance to come to meet; these 3 things are my terms of breathing, eating, and sleeping, without them I don't think I would do things the way I do them today. The way I walk, sleep, talk, and interact with others. Without those 3 things I would merely be figment of the world's imagination. They are my drug and daily ritual consumption, they are me and I am them.


It's almost like a world that you can't excape from because the walls of this sublime prison are too tall to reach. Even if they weren't tall the presentation of art, music, and fashion should make it enough for you to not want to leave, you would than be institionalized and mesmerized by the simple sight. I fiend for this feeling every minute ready to sell my life for just another taste, lick, and crumb. It's like when you do something that no one else is doing, I would call that a sign of genius in itself. You don't have to attend an Ivy League school to be a genius, or be a mechanical engineer to have artistic ability and the vision to create something new. The only risk you take in introducing something new to the masses is "rejection", I rebuttle with life's no fun without mistakes, broken rules, or perfectioc driven life. Risk taking is one of the only ways you learn what works best for your lifestyle (everchanging like mine or not). One thing I do know for a fact is that I'm so liquid it hurts; you never know what to expect from me on any given day, the things I say, the way I dress, the was I talk, my choice of demeanor, everything down to the way I walk. My viewpoints and choices of lifestyle alter as any truly open minded person's would that is of course if they appreciate new cultures, customs, and concepts.


Here are some photos from the shoot. Enjoy!




Anthony Elias Espinoza 2009

One of my favorite commercials

No More Drugs Please!

Before you begin I must warn you of the days to come, the moment you start you cant beg to go backwards. no you cant erase the past or pay the debts off, once yours in you're in you're in for life, there are no returns on such items....Once that feeling hits you and your body, mind, and soul are opened up, you are born. never in your life will ever experience that feeling again, some try, but never do. Its a feeling of submission.



You really have not a clue of what to expect from this and aren't given direct directions of the how to, but not what comes after the inhale. Hmmm. take a breath in, now exhale. The easy part is now over. So the life you thought you woud have and dreamed about when you were a young one is not put to the back of lifes path with every other "one day this willl happen"



How can something so small cause such a big destructive mess. When it's solid its worth tons and does wonderous things, but if you happen to get it wet and becomes a liquid it doesn't have effect and is worth nothing. It's humorous how something so valuable can become meaningful in a heartbeat. Within a single snap of the fingers it loses it's power instantaneously, with no armor to bear.



Anthony Elias Espinoza 2009

Leaving Phoenix: Michigan??

So here's the thing i might be moving to MICHIGAN within a month or so. New art school, and the cool thing is i already have a job lined up for me that pays $10 an hour.

I'm most excited about the opportunity of a lifetime to go to school expenses paid for and live comfortably in a nice house close to my family. Anyways, im ready to leave the nest here in Phoenix and maybe visit once in awhile.

If you have any thoughts let me know

Esmee' Denters: Outta Here

This girl is so amazing, the cool thing about this girl from NETHERLANDS is she used to be a waitress and started singing on youtube about 2 years ago. Now she is signed to Justin Timberlakes new record company INTERSCOPE. Amazing job Esmee'.

Our Foolish Ways

One, two. Ready?

Breathe!



It is alive;

life is given

or so we think.



At any given time


this life could

be taken

in just a

single blink.



But please



don't hold your

breath for too long,

or you may

suffocate!



No one

said



it would be

easy, especially

when you

learn to hate.



It's better to

exclude

yourself



from what

goes on

these days.



Only seems

to get

harder



with each step

we take.

Our foolish ways.



Anthony Elias Espinoza 2009

Sorry

i and you

from there and through

sought and fought our problems

until i was taught your problems

taught how disrespectful you were towards me

how inconsiderate and oblivious you were towards me

i couldn’t stand it anymore i couldn’t fight it anymore

you let me go completely

you let me fall continuously

and you left me for how many eternities?

you tore out my heart like you did before, what did you want? an encore?

or just to ignore the fact that you weren’t ready to begin this war

you told me i had to change

told me i had to rearrange

rearrange my life and you within it

but with your wife and her invisible knife ready to begin this

someone who had no respect towards me

and you wanted me to accept that?

should have objected and left undetected or stayed and stood corrected

it would’ve been a lie if i were to say i was perfect

it would’ve been a lie if you told me to stay and let’s try and fix this

i was supposed to protect myself protect myself from you and your neglect

what did you think? i was defective?

it affected me and made me reject you

Dominic Riccitello <3

Anthony Elias Espinoza 2009

Go Green or Go Home

The sky is falling! That's what many people think when they hear about global warming and the consequences that come along with the melting polar icecaps. There are many ways that global warming affects the planet. Not only are the temperatures rising, out natural resources may become extinct due to the carelessness of our forefathers and ourselves. The population has taken actions to reverse the affects of global warming. Have you heard the phrase "Go Green"? This phrase is taking America by storm. As a population we are taking a stand to conserve our planets natural resources. Those action include buying Eco-friendly clothing,vintage clothing and recycled fashions.


Many local clothing lines have created what we call "green" clothing. This clothing is made from organic materials. The cotton in a t-shirt may be made from cotton that uses no pesticides in its harvesting techniques. A study done by Worldwatch Institute suggest that a cotton T-shirt blend with polyester can release approximately one quarter of its weight in air pollutants and 10 times its weight in carbon dioxide. There is also very ow no dye substances in the clothing. The less dye that is used in the fabrics means fewer amounts of chemicals disposed of. The dye that is typically used is disposed of can absorb into the soil.


People who are committed to helping the environment also buy vintage clothing. These clothes are not new, but they have a lot of wear left in them. In some cases, the clothes that are from earlier decades come back in style and many people prefer the vintage clothing over the new lines of clothing. Not only does vintage clothing look nice, they are a good price. Most used clothing is a fraction of the cost compared to a new shirt. Buying vintage clothing does not require any type of natural resource waste. We are simply using what we already have.


Recycled clothing has become very popular within that last couple of years. There have not been many large retailers that have used the recycled clothing method. Recycled clothing in clothing that is made up plastic bottles, used cotton t-shirts, and other recycled goods. A retailer that specializes in recycled plastic fabrics is Ecospun. Ecospun is a fabric that resembles polyester, but is made of recycled plastic bottles. The Ecospun fabric can also be incorporate into fabrics such as wool and cotton.


Like many other countries around the world, we are trying to take a stand against global warming. Eco-friendly clothing, vintage clothing, and recycled clothing are all big help to the ecosystem. If we can find a way to incorporate fashion with major clothing. I believe we could make a difference in the world. There may not be a massive relief to global warming, but we may be able to save the Earth one t-shirt at a time.





Anthony Elias Espinoza 2009

Compare and Contrast: Trendsetter of Timeless Classic?

Eccentric. Edgy. Timeless. These are just couple of words that illustrate fashion today. How exactly do we know what is considered to be glamorous or outrageous? We can look at many examples throughout history to find the variations. I believe that there are two types of people, trendsetters like Naomi Campbell and timeles-classic such as Princess Diana. The may be alike in the sense of both carry a strong demeanor of confidence, yet they ca differ in others with respect to being fashion forwars, timeless classics.


Trendsetters are the fashion forward, not afraid to try anything kind of people. For example, Naomi Campbell is considered a modern day fashion adventuress. She was not in any way classic nor traditional. She walked the runway in many outrageous oufits; one of the most memorable was a pair of nine inch heels. Today she is a fashion icon. many times Ms. Campbell wears outfits that look they came from a chic future. Not many people can pul off Naomi's style; but then again, not many people would exhibitbravery and decide to wear her fearless fashion.


Timeless is not only a phrase that we use tpo describe soemthing it is a state of being. When mos people hear the word timeless classic they think of non other Princess Diana of Wales. She did not only have a classic bob hairdo tht is a must-have today, she also had a wardrobe to match her personalit. For example, Princess Diana wore brilliant colors, clever accesories, and topped it off with a distinguished confidence. Princess Diana of Wales is the quintessential meaning of a classic glamour.


There are many differences in the types of clothing that there woman wore, but there are also many similarities that make them so memorable. Naomi and Princess Diana both had an eye for what was going to be a trend and what fashions were here to stay. Both these woman had something that was more noticeable that any clothing that they put on their bodies, they had confidence. This confidence made the not-so-attractive outfits look like they were stitched with gold thread. Everone wanted to wear what they were wearing so maybe they could a little shimmer of confidence that these women demonstrated.


Naomi Campbell and Princess Diana are very good illustrations of a trendsetter and a timeless-classic appearance. They have both displayed drivers look that took the world by storm. They were not just memorable because the fashions they wore, they had an undeniable poise. In the case of these two women, the fashion did not make them, they made fashion.





Anthony Elias Espinoza 2009

Back To School: January 20, 2009

Why is that everytime you start over or start something new you feel so refreshed and new?


Well, this time with this quarter it's very much different than most other times I was in school.
I have two jobs and I am still in school. WOW! Never before could this have happened. I guess to an extent cutting people from my life and worrying about nobody but myself is good right?

So yeah, for the most part i kind of feel important with something on my shoulders, before I was just a no one. I was in the same category as those who don't work or live off of their parents, but not this time. I have decided to separate myself from those people and category. I feel really excited for the new year, school, and my jobs because it's never been this good. Let's just hope when Nelly Furtado's song "ALL GOOD THINGS COME TO AN END" isn't correct in this instance! I am hopeful and will remain so as long as i can breathe, like I said in an earlier blog, I am ready for change.


With OBAMA now in the White House anything is possible really. When Martin Luther King Jr. said "I have a dream" most people didn't really think twice about what he said, but that's why one reason I believe in dreams and you can never dream to big. My mother always told me I dream to big and that I will never go nowhere, well time for me to do things for me. I dont care what anyone says about me or thinks because at the end of the night I only have to answer to me and GOD. Oh yeah, and my father who passed away in 1993 R.I.P. he's watching over me as we speak. <3

My classes this quarter I thought were going to be TEXTILES and SPEECH, but I guess I was wrong, they must have changed it somewhere along the lines of something and i ended up with FUNDAMENTALS of ADVERTISING, which im way more excited about. The only thing now that I have to worry about is MONEY for my textbooks and supplies, so I guess getting two new jobs didnt do too much for me only get me what I need. EH? Oh the way the world works these days.


Another thing I have noticed is that the people who used to communicate with me have kind of withdrawn from it, and you know what i dont feel sad about it because I don't need people taking up my time or space. This quarter I'm not worried about who thinks I'm cool, who likes me, who wants me, what everyone else is doing, where they are going; I'm only concerned on where I'm going, what I'm doing, how I'm doing, and supporting myself. BAI!!!!





Anthony Elias Espinoza 2009

Surreptitious Love Affair

One, two,....... Ready?
Breathe!


it is alive,
life is given
or so we think


At any given time


this life
could be taken
in just a
single
blink


But please


dont hold
your breath for
too long
or you may
suffocate

No one
said
it would easy
when you
learn to hate


It's better
to exciting
yourself


from what
goes on
these days


Only seems
to get harder


with each step
we take and
our foolish ways.





Anthony Elias Espinoza 2009

RENEWED

one goal, one love, one life to live, i know what i'm doing with it.



people forget, they forget what life's really about. theres struggles, and hardships; it's not all fun and games. it's easy to fall, fall fast, and fall hard, give up, and not know what the rest has in store. give up now and later in life you could be a great success. people don't always know what the future might hold. it's possible that the beginning was hard and the end was prodigious. it could be reversed, your beginning is great and your end is full of hardships. won't know till the day you depart from us, won't know till your life comes to an end. was it worth it or was it not? was it worth it to give up something that people admire so immensely? you're gone forever, not coming back, no heaven, no hell. nothing but science, dead, ashes, in a casket full of lies and hope. you're sitting with the bugs now, how does it feel? you gave up, you could have been something. the only thing you are now are memories, dreams. wakeup and the thought of you being there was a lie. it was nothing but fear of waking up and being able to see you again. tear out the heart’s of many. you played hangman, you lost, you've been hung.


gone without you, gone before your eyes. let gravity slip, rocks fall, clouds fall, the ceiling hit's the ground. it's a shift of reality, a grasp of pain. they said it all before, they said it like it mattered. i said, don't stress about the people that aren't in your life, realize why they didn't make it to your future.


hope's all i wish for, dreams are all i see. i have no truth, i have no reality. it's nothing but wizard of oz and dorothy wishing she was home. it's nothing but dreams of torture, dreams of heart broken, dreams of everything i wish i'd be. everything i wish i could be and everyone broken from before and beyond. love to feel free and feel like i could run away. sit on a bench in italy and forget about the past and make the present. cut connections and make true possibilities and happiness happen. everyone has dreams and everyone has reality. people get hit harder with reality then others and people get shot with arrows of devastation more then anyone else. true happiness doesn't happen, you have to make it happen.


i'm gone because you can't stand being beside me, believing in me. being there for me, you're a failure, a disgrace to the human race. you sat there as if it'd all get better. as if everything could fix its self by its self, i know you can't stand that i'm not sorry. i'm tired of waiting, waiting here to declare a meaning. meaning of you and me and what we'll never be. far from the meaning of what you're supposed to be and how you're supposed to be. sorry it's the way you made it be.
coincided our pain with a remedy of hate. we shared everything, we changed everything. you made it different; you made it twice of a hell. promised you wouldn't leave, promised you'd stay by my side. your promises were lies, lies of running away to a place of empty misfortune. promises of black and white. you needed help, i tried to help. you left, i tried to follow, i walked until the pavement started to fade into the distance; i walked until i couldn't walk anymore. i couldn't find you, you were hiding from me. like hiding everything you always do from me. run away and i won’t be able to help you. it's for you, it's not for me. it's where the rain meets the air and you fall, fall from the sky and hit the jist of reality.


empty. cold. worthless breathless, chills up and down the spine. zero degree temperature takes over. numb feelings, standing alive with motions incapable of being used. lets reverse the problem, serve a purpose. greed and hate it's there, jealousy it's a damn lie. you've been frozen in time. you said it's deep, how deep?


oblivious. nothing. empty. you're nothing, no one. stuck deep in dreams full of lies. you tell yourself your right, won't make you feel better. you struck, you hit, you abused. you're tough, nothing but insecure emotions. hope that completes you. flesh and blood, you have nothing left. it's unbelievable how far someone can go. gave enough respect but haven't received any back. hard to keep loving when you can't love back. it'll be to late soon, regret.


sometimes the only person you have is yourself. no one else to hold in and hold back. you go to sleep at night thinking, hoping, waiting. it doesn't happen, you fall, fall so deep. the wait is dreadful, it never happens. they let you down. never committing to what one says. it's unbelievable, it's sickening. don't say you will if you won't. don't say you'll be there if you won't. don't talk like you're trying to help. you talk once, that's it, you act like it's all been fixed. it's all the same, you didn't change one thing. you're the problem, it's going to end sooner or later. you can't change me, you've been the problem since day one. just remember you were the one who left.


bangs, slits, switchblades and promises. been told so many lies, told they'd never do it again. used excuses to get around it, never admitted to what one did. always pushed around it, always told another lie. doesn't get old, never will get old. you'd think people would forget it, you'd think people would get over it. not that easy and it'll never be that easy. you said goodbye, you didn't think it'd be the last time you said it, did you? remember you signed that paper, paper saying fuck you here's some "change", goodbye.


you took my life. you took my writings. you saw everything, you read everything. it's in the open air now. congratulations, violated. let's switch back and forth and see how it feels. read the lives of your peers. read the inner most deepest thoughts, the one's you'd never expect. the one's you'd never even think about. what happened that Saturday night? you weren't suppose to know, you weren't suppose to know about the pills, the love, the hate, the everything. read about the sleepless nights staring at the fan. saw every emotion capable. Congrats don’t you feel like the big bad wolf.


i tried, i left, i couldn't conquer it. left behind in the meaning of life. left behind in your eyes. you saw nothing, you treated as if nothing. treated as if i were a piece of shit walking the earth. a piece of nothing, empty, filled air. told everything, told yourself you wouldn't do it again. again as if it was a lie. as if it was nothing, as if i was no one. told myself i'd always carry you through everything. told myself i'd never leave you behind. told myself i'd never be anything like you. told myself i'd mold into something different. here i am today, i'm not you, i'm not anything like you. i put on a show for everyone. make everyone laugh, make everyone smile. deep down inside it's not anything like that. it's never going to be anything like that. it's just a smile so no one asks for an explanation of a breathless and mood less face. a face of empty lies.


i take away everything i’ve ever said. a disappointment is what you are. you were never there, never once. made is unbelievably hard to breathe. what do you think happened? it progressed. acted as if everything was ok, everything was fine. no problems at all. secrets and lies made everyone feel fine. it was all never but an act, all a joke, all nothing but misfortune. you came back, you made everything better. you left again; you kept stuff away, you made lies. you swore, you broke, and you left. feelings became unbearable. you treated everyone different, you expected to be different. you expect me to understand, understand what? understand that you’re the biggest failure of life. it’s not easy, it’s not real. not normal, and will never be normal. everything wasn’t fine. few years pass by and you found out. you think I’m some whack. what’d you do? nothing. did you care? do you even care? why do you think i kept secrets? everything finally got better, or so you thought. it lasted a few months, three at the most. found out you started back up again, you lied, you kept stuff away. look where we are now, back at stage one.
in the end, you're you and i'm me. you made it what it was, you created what it was. made everything complicated, made all these problems. could have worked around it but you decided you were too good for me. decided that i'm this problem and you have to fix it. ignore me, ashamed of me, and thought all these things of me. oh well, how long more are you going to live with yourself? how many times have you fucked up now? your insecurities got the best of you and now look what you've become. congratulations, i hope you can live with yourself.
you have no idea what my about me is even about, don't act like you can even come close or relate.


i'm single, i'm picky, and i don't trust easy. i don't want a girlfriend like the rest. i don't enjoy the drama of high school relationships. there's no point because they don't last forever. i'm not going to waste my time on some girl that i know won't last.


someone that's fun, funny, can hold a conversation, isn't self conscious, obviously good looking, and in shape. too bad that's impossible to find.

Dominic Riccitello <3



Anthony Elias Espinoza 2009

First Day On The Job

Start the new job today with Liberty Tax Services @ 9AM. In training for most of the day and we'll see how that goes. I'm kind of excited, but at the same time I'm still kind of skeptical of all this, but only time will tell. At least the people I work with are fun and easy to work with. I'll take it day by day with my father [RIP] standing by me the whole way.


My job is to oversee all the Marketing of the company and train all the new booty's, I'm pretty stoked for this Road Side Party I'm in charge of; it should be exciting, seeing as I'm in charge of planning and running it.


The work seems not only self explanatory, but pretty simple for someone like me. I worked a total of 4 hours today and 28 hours next week. Anywho, as days go by i hope to grow with the company and not make the same mistake as I always do cause I know better this time.


I just found out today that Circuit City is going out of business and it's really scary to think that so many people lost jobs and what not, which tells me I need to be grateful for the things I recieve and the opportunities that come my way.


Believe me when I say this guy ain't going back to the old ways. Im ready for change and guess what I'm taking it head on. Oh baby!





Anthony Elias Espinoza 2009

Januay 15th, 2008

So today I got up way late @ 7pm. I actually awoke to a phone call, which could change my life. Iactually just got a new job today and im pretty stoked. You have no idea.


I guess these guys really like me and want to put me in charge of the Marketing position, which like has me on my feet. its pretty exhilirating to sit in the back seat for once. Im training all day tomorrow and then im off; like a bird in the sky.


Anywho, I guess late night jam sessions are over for me from now on. No more sleeping at like 7 am til 7 pm. Time for change new year, new life, new experiences, new friends and im so ready for it. I didn't really have a New Years conclusion this year and I don't know why; ever since Michael my life has changed.


In a way even though he ruined my life, I kind of want to thank him and owe him so much, for showing me that side of the fence that I know now I want no part of. For the most part my life is ok, I know at times i cry and whine, but than again who doesn't.


So off to a new start and a new career, and school is another story more updates later. maybe tomorrow when i get back from the job i will talk about that situation which could take hours, but i won't waste my time on that shit.





Anthony Elias Espinoza 2009

Freckles

So I recently met this person who I will for security reasons leave to remain anonymous and post no pictures of on here. I will call this person RH.


Anywho, so this person is a ONE OF A KIND unique individual. I have never met anyone like this person, who on any given day never seizes to amaze me and keep me on my feet.
I don't exactly know what it is about RH that attracts me so much, maybe its the smile, the laugh, the looks, the personality, the aura, or what; but what I do know is when I see RH smile, i feel so weak in the knees.


RH has the cutest smile that anyone could ask for and I would have it no other way. Now that I finally make contact with RH on a daily basis the way I feel is starting to grow each second. Im not even gonna say how it is that I feel only that its different than most. At times i get compared to the REST that has been in RH's life and it doesn't make me feel good at all. I find myself trying to figure out a way to fix what I did and rebound myself for the point.


(No one has ever made me do that make me feel like i have to affirm myself.)


When RH sits there and tells me about how RH gets treated badly and how RH is walked all over by exes, and how the father makes duragatory comments about the way RH looks, concerning weight, (which there is no problem because RH is one of the most beautiful people I have ever seen in the world) and that the way RH thinks is that there is no hope for anything other than continuing to be hurt. I think thats where I come in; im here to give RH back all those times lost with bad people and situations, to rebuild what needs rebuilt in RH's life.


I dont know how it is we came to meet or anything, all I know is RH was put in my life for a reason; whatever the reason is I still am waiting to figure it out.


Have you ever like gone all gooo-goo-gahh-gahh when you see someone or talk to them? Well RH does this times like a million to me when we talk to each other. Seeing that smile, that laugh, those eyes, that MAGNIFICENT smile, or that compexion that a greek god could ask for. I honestly believe this person could be in a museum or hanging on the wall of a very important person, thats how rediculously attractive and beautiful this person is. RH makes me look like a cat in the trash can or a dog in the mud puddle when compared to the physical appearance RH has.


Not to mention when I do speak of this matter RH says that its whats inside that matters most. Having been told many times that RH loves my personality and that that is the most attractive quality a person can have because there is more to someone than looks and materialistic things.
I swear I cant find one flaw in RH, everything that comes out of RH's mouth and head is like it was pulled from EINSTEIN and GHANDIS brain and intellectual library itself. RH's choices of words and vocabulary, the way RH's puts certain things together as a reaction to something that I say makes it to where RH is in charge. It's almost as if it's like having the last word, RH is so smart with everything that is done, every move that is made, every look that is given, where is the fault? Everything is so PERFECT.


Although there are little if, ands, or buts running around my head about this person, nothing gonna take away from the times we have already spent together, the times we smile, laugh, play together; the times that I want to hold for eternity and longer, the times that I pray and hope will continue to grow by the day.




RH if you are reading this i want you know that you have given me something that i have been searching for a realy long time and I want to thank you for every minute we spend together. The way you make my heart feels, I can't thank you or even begin to search for words. Even if this doesnt work out in the long run at least I can sit and remenisce on the few times we have spent.You are very special person and in my heart you will stay.
You know if you ever need to talk to someone or need an ear to listen I am here. Always and forever


Anthony Elias Espinoza 2009

Stickam Friends

So I recently joined this amazing site callled




http://stickam.com/



Its this site where people can get on cam and do shows, entertain or not. People i guess have become like celebrities from this shit, but i dont see how the hell someone can be famous for having 1664876471894787 friends or views. Anyways, some people even get paid to be an entertainer.



I have a couple great people already that I get on cam alreadt on a daily basis.


One for instance is HOT girl


Queen search her name in stickam.com search box








Her real name is Ashley and she basically is amazing with her big breasts and pretty smile that could light that sky like the Batman lights in the sky. She's a real sweet girl and i pretty much love her already.







Than you have the ever so TOKEN BLACK GUY and pretty much amazing guy so far



Brownbear22 search his name in the stickam.com search box

His real name is Allen and he lives here in the valley, except he stays in the rich people parts of town, and yeah he's real person and I enjoy his company. Especially when we're eating Burger King and qouting Dane Cook and Bonquiqui Bonquiqui.



LMFAO

Kris search his name in the stickam.com search box

Now, Kris is an even funnier person, as you can see I caught some pics of him in the live chat and decided to post them, just for the hell of it. He's a pretty sweet guy and he's a great person to talk to late at night when nobody else in the world is up cause they are all sleeping.

Cassiexmeowws search her name in the stickam.com search box





Now Cassie is a gymclasshero, and cosmetology student in CHI-town. WOOT WOOT. Anywho, she really is like my little cat and I feed her through the computer screen. So one day we were playing a game of truth and dare, and she was dared to take a handful of mayonaise and rub it all over her face and I did manage to get in on video.

Anywho, so yeah for the most part things seem to be getting better by the day. I'm still struggling with trying to get a job, but who isn't; the recession is so not cool right now and the economy is so lagging. But its ok the angels watching over have said things will get better in time and positive things are to come.



Anthony Elias Espinoza 2009

ChemECO Wearfare

ChemECO Wearfare Est. 2008
The Crush Collection: Spring 2010-2011
Women’s-High End-Casual-Dress
“Eco-friendly fashion meets the eye for couture”

New fashion pioneer and upcoming designer Anthony Espinoza, brings a new flare to the fashion world with his awaited clothing line and precious baby, ChemECO Wearfare. He says it is the eco-conscious style guard that the fashion world has been waiting for because in this he will not only incorporate sustainable, environmentally friendly materials (like yes, hemp), but he hopes to put a new spotlight on the ever so famous “Go Green” slogan that has taken the world by storm.

“ChemECO Wearfare is play from the 2 words ‘chemical warfare’. Now I wanted to take something as dramatic as that and give it a twist and make it my own in terms to fashion by changing it very minutely. If we think about it I have created something new; taking something that has a bad meaning and making it good in a sense and it’s all tied in and intertwined with what the fashion world needs,” as stated by Espinoza.


Having said that it’s always a competition on the amount of money people are spending on what they wear and the materials that it is being made from, Espinoza wants to change the fashion industry completely. This new rave of the town designer hopes to bring people closer to the worlds of recycling, reusing and cleansing what needs to be cleaned up. “We have a lot of work to accomplish and I’m willing to be the pioneer of this start of a new way of living I call ‘ChemECO Wearfare’.” Anthony answered when asked about the economy.


Espinoza provides insight to his first collection, The Crush Collection, which features fashion apparel, handbags and clutches made of eco-friendly fabrics. For some, to be inspired by forms and patterns to exist in nature lends itself to the desire to conserve nature’s resources while still being young and playful. His collection will feature dresses (cocktail dresses, evening dresses) dress pants and skirts all being of a variety of styles and textiles , which include denim, soy, bamboo jersey, 100% organic cotton and are hand printed with water based inks, while others are made from materials such as silk and soy.


The handbags will be constructed of European hemp and denim as the base and bamboo wood will be used for the handles. The collection features eco chic bags that are made from hemp fiber that acts as a strengthener, which is a rapidly renewable plant that can be made into extremely strong fiber. “I want them to be useful for everyday as well as feel like they belong outside being carried around town part of nature where it came from. Now with means of using the hemp I was hoping for an ideal alternative for making eco friendly gear for harsh winters.” Espinoza said.


Along with his first collection, Espinoza will also be launching a rare line of eco accessories which seem like a life staple in everyday living. “It’s about finding balance with a loop of consumption where I closely examine ecology with everyday living and our personal needs,” the freshman designer affirmed. This is a real glam discovery to come across this Arizona designer who defies passing trends with both an earthy and shimmery take on true sustainable style.

If you classify as either an urban scavenger or a street-savvy recycler-er, than this jewelry recycling concoction might be the resource you are looking for with unique found objects and such metal pieces found and recycled to be reclaimed from constructed sites and lots. These pieces of jewelry aren’t for every fashion freak, but these clever designs are for the eco-fashionista whom not only refuses to settle for trends, but looks no further for that stylish spin these alchemized into treasures for adornment.


Espinoza also states, “I think these handcrafted unique and one-of-a-kind jewelry are a “piece” of art. Rings and necklaces compliment this by saying “that’s a great piece!” Also, being made from vintage and scrap materials this jewelry also uses up cycled and vintage materials give the pieces a down-to-earth and natural look.”

Anthony Elias Espinoza 2009

A Different Me

I've been blessed with humanitarianism, logic and an interrogative secretary nearly a decade running.


It's rare I get thrown for a curveball for I am often too passive/submissive to notice; so I am told.


However, I do play my games every now and then.


I don't believe in a 'hand that feeds' nor do I have respect for any that capitalize on the luxury.


What ever happened to willingness, capability and hard work getting people where they need to be?


Welp, economy talk is for queers.


I find little pleasure in 'the act' and often find it disgusting after the fact.


Without mental stimulation that can be maintained, I find no reason to bother.


Most members of both sexes are rather repulsive.


Yet I still have a MySpace.


I find most people I encounter to be rather boring.


They fall under one of the four signs astrologers refer to as 'the most boring men on earth.'


Unfortunately they are also the majority I'm ever able to land.


I'd much rather be getting gezonkled and laughing with my friends than catching up on who mounted who at last nights frat-astic frat-acular.


If it's interesting, my head's thought it, my hand's used it and my drive's abused it.


The term 'you are unauthorized' only fuels my desire for an unregistered handgun.


And do you know who I am?


No, I do not know who you are and by your superior social skills of introducing yourself I frankly do not care.


I don't understand what makes hardcore cool.


There's nothing intimidating nor exciting about suburban white boys pretending to hussle pussy.


Hell, it's all given up free anyway.


There's nothing impressive about an overbaring, dominant scumfuck who still pays American dollar to get by.


Live off the land.


Now that'd be badass.


Paper should not determine the value of human life.


I support law in the respect of keeping life fair and unjudging for everyone.


Except the government's run out of ideas.


Tradition is bullshit, given that a moment in time only happens once.


I try not to buy into things that will get me nowhere.


Hypocritically speaking, I also see many people today would be better off if they dropped off the face of the earth.


As would society; which just like the Roman Empire has grown too big to support itself, to the point we created a synthetic human habitat (ie Phoenix).


If anything were to happen, you know we're up shit creek.


Many misinterpret me to be angry.


Lost in imagination.


A horrible, destructive being who's gone bonkers.


An amateur politician?


Sometimes monotoned and aloof.


Have you tried breaking any ice?


It's just as uncomfortable for me as it is yourself when a sick, twisted, cynical sense of humor is not understood.


It's understandable, seeing as how everyone's been raised under the safety blanket ofeverything being done FOR them.


Common sense has become something former generations snarled at, aka booksmart.


But they have their own problems, such as loyalty, which triggered Pearl Harbor.


The Japs were dipshits too.


It's kind of ironic age must be respected when these heaping wealths of knowlege need their asses wiped by CNAs.


Times change.


Respect should be earned.


Anyway, before I rant my way to hell I'd like to sum things up.


I'm Anthony, I prefer animal instinct and reading the stars over what he said she said.


Having appreciation for things rightfully larger than life and not those who climbed a hypothetical ladder after having been born equal to all others.


I will not befriend those who add dead weight.


I don't babysit.


Too old for chores.


If the world can't grow up and take care of itself, then who will?



Anthony Elias Espinoza 2008